The preparation for epol’s farewell almost complete now, It must be done before sunday, and I have to spend time with it. Probably not online again, whilst I still doubt that fa is going to appear anytime soon. I just home from plaza, bought some empty cd-r to burn some movies. I’ll wait for fa, untill sunday, before initiating something surprising to everyone.

Mum’s really good at spending, now she bought a water processing unit for rm2k, which uses ‘overrated’ technology. I think rather than buying that, why not she just buy the cheaper and normal one that would cost only rm300-rm600, or increases my allowances. Who knows, maybe she’ll buy a microchip advanced toilet bowl next?

He returned home at last, I just ignore him all days. Don’t have the mood to talk to him now. Meanhile, I couldn’t online yesterday because I was preparing something for epol’s farewell.

Today, my brother was rude to me when I asked him not to hit my smaller brother. Then, I’ve punched him when he tried to attack me. He hit the operation spot, I still feel pain even as I’m writing. Luckily for me, I’ve managed to evade his kick, if not it could be fatal. That fight was ended when mum came, followed by my kick on his knees causing him to fall. He’s a silat second to red belt, and quite an opponent when I was handling him. But thanks to my experiences with taekwondo, I won. Although it has ended, I still feel sad for hurting him. For the sake of ‘teaching’ I make that move, he din’t realise what I do was only to make him good, and better than who I am. But his age, makes it not possible for him to understand. He started to insulted me, with many things. even those ancient things I’ve done in the past. I got angried and tried to discipline him, but mum come into it. He’s out now, mum sent him to gramp’s house. But still, It was terrible. I could see tears in his eyes, but he won’t see mine. It was hurt to know he never knows how much I’ve sacrificed for his sake, sisters, and other brothers. The pain was even painful from the time I was hit by 8 man back in the past. It’s not his punch, it’s not his words, but his failure to understand that pains me. Maybe if he gets other brother than me.. only then he will understand.. my real value.

Jas keep calling me and spamming my inbox since yesterday night, it’s darn annoying. Even threatened me to kill herself if I won’t entertain her request. There’s a high chance that this is why I don’t feel really well again. I just really wish that this crazy girl would stop disturbing me.

Ops.. sorry I dont think I have the lyric

Friends came to house last night. It’s been a year since my last encounter with them. One of them is getting fatter too, weight at about 84kg now. We’d chatted untill 11 pm, it was a nice. Most of them, notice the differences in me. They said my physical appearance change. I just told them that, the sugery or my illness probably triggered the conditions. I thought that, they would’nt ask me about my current girl, but to my surprise one of them asked me about Jas.

“dont fight with a girl, you’l like the girl” an old phrase. maybe this phrase is not 100% accurate, but 70% of it did happen to me. When I first met this girl a long time ago, we had a big fight, from that, we become close friend and now even closer than just a friend. I told myself that eventhough that she’s gone, It wont bother me, but turn out it does.

As usual, another proposal. But I won’t easily fell for anyone. Guess that’s it for now, I’ll be writing short now, untill I have the time to write again.

P/S: farewell qilot, may god bless you. Have a good time there, love yah.

Done upgraded my pc, took me 2 days for this, only left 5 days now though. Well, that’s all, have to resume installing drivers now.